July 28, 2019

That nurse was right on my tail. “I ask you again to please stay here until the clinic opens….Mrs Bishop I believe you intend to leave here and commit suicide. You are not being fair! I told you I did not have a psychiatrist on duty, the doctor has done the best he could and I am asking you to stay here until the clinic opens in the morning. You have refused to stay. Do you realize what happens when someone commits suicide in Toronto? Every hospital is contacted to see if the person came there for help. Did the hospital turn the patient away? Your suicide will harm the reputation of Womens College Hospital and I don’t think we deserve that. I ask you again to stay.” These may not be the exact words that nurse spoke but they are close enough. She will also be 50 years older now and I once again thank her very much for saving my life and saving my daughters the grief of having a mother who committed suicide. Needless to say I chose to wait for the clinic to open. Who was I to ruin the reputation of Women’s College Hospital?! I remember looking at the clock. It was somewhere around 4 AM …. my kids would be getting up around 8AM. I took all 4 seconnal and lay down on a pew like bench in the waiting room.....

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